Sunday, November 02, 2008

Putting a (Public) Stake in the Ground

Well loyal readers, it's time for Beth to announce her Biggest Project Yet: Operation Smaller Ass. Or perhaps it's Jiggle-B-Gone 2009? Or Campaign to Stop Dependence on Lane Bryant as My Sole Fashion Option?

You get the plus-sized picture. The fact is, I'm fat. I've been fat for a very long time....but the past few years in particular have been especially cringe-worthy on the scales. The other weekend I went out in a tank top and caught myself in a mirror and was frankly shocked and disgusted at the size of the woman looking back at me. I didn't recognize myself at all. I'm tired of the self loathing and the hiding from the world and the putting my life on hold until I get thin and the eating a pound of pasta at a time because I'm bored and lonely and the feeling like I'm 50 years old because my joints hurt from being so damned fat. I hate all of it.

My feeling is that by blogging about this topic more and being a little more public about my weight loss efforts, it makes it real for me. It makes me accountable. It takes it out of the realm of me just being frustrated and saying and I'm going to do something and makes me actually do it. Plus it encourages the World of Beth to cheer me on and kick my flabby ass when I need it.

Now this isn't to say that this will become a diet blog where I talk about recipes and workout tips and my measurements (unless I start acheiving major results, in which case all bets are off). But I need a stake in the ground - a beginning point to measure from, where I say that things have changed and will be different and that progress moves forward from this day. Stay tuned for more on this topic...my elastic waist pants need to come out of the dryer for now.

3 comments:

Rachel said...

Good for you! Definitely a tough road but you can do it! You're wise to recognize that going it alone, as with lots of stuff in life, makes it extra tough. So make everyone help you!

And as for road trips to Sacramento...yep. Tahoe yes, Sacramento no. Yosemite yes, Sacramento no. Marin County and Muir Woods yes, Sacramento no. Santa Barbara yes, Sacramento no. Heck just come all the way down to San Diego! But hey, I applaud you for getting out and seeing new things (you win some, you lose some...).

Brown Family said...

I hear you!!! Let's go on Biggest Loser together, eh? I'm afraid we probably don't present enough "conflict" for their liking in a pair ...

Good luck with it. I thought this was my year, but maybe next year will be. At least my 2-year-old loves to exercise since she's seen me do it a few times this year. :)

But if you find any exercises you really like or videos, let me know. I like the Biggest Loser one called Power Sculpt. You use light weights to boost the workout, and you can customize the workout (put the most difficult first, do the easiest three times, etc.). You decide at the beginning and it plays in order what you selected.

Dave said...

I'm working on the same goal these days, and having mixed results. I have good weeks and bad weeks. This past weekend was a bad one - I went to the gym, but then I went to my favorite American diner and had Buffalo wings.
By all means, let's compare notes and encourage each other. ;) Best of luck!